Hello people.
I'm a 19 year-old reforming beta who is currently waiting for college to start. Been an avid reader of game and been lurking for the past year or so but finally I think it's about time I get off my lazy ass and actually join the club for real.
The thing is, despite reading so much from Chateau Heartiste, Krauser, Neil Strauss and the likes, I am still at a lost as to where to start. I have trouble absorbing everything and I know that reading is as it is, simply reading. I have to approach sooner or later, but then again, I don't know how to start.
I'm still trying to get over a 2-year long case of oneitis. Mainly not so much because of the girl, but rather for my ego. When I did not have a single clue about game at all (I was raised by a single mother which did nothing for me but turned me beta as fuck as I used to put women on a pedestal, people-pleasing and other shit) I fell in love with this girl and tried to chase her, failing terribly and making a mockery of myself. What I did probably went against every fundamental of game and commandment of poon that I cringe at my pathetic past. I used to think she was out of my league, stare at her a lot, talk to her too much and told her my honest feelings a few months later only to get rejected (I guess I definitely deserved it).
I only discovered the Game community a year ago and I think this is a great community of extremely intelligent and like-minded people who want to help each other on the path of self-improvement. I really wish I can fix my past by successfully going back and start gaming that chick again now but I doubt it's possible after fucking up so hard isn't it? Sometimes I just want to move on on this journey of Game like the forums say, that more pussy is the cure of all oneitis problems. But really, my ego will never forgive me for being so fucking beta.
I really wish to improve myself and my game, I am now lifting regularly and am well-cut, making sure I am impeccably dressed always and at least the alpha male in more than one circle of friends but with zero to no experience and a ton of beta/past ghosts haunting me, I always feel like I still have many creases to iron out. Sometimes I wish a mentor or fellow reformed beta could share some experiences for me to learn from and help me along the way so that I can become a better man, not just to get pussy, but for myself.
I'm a 19 year-old reforming beta who is currently waiting for college to start. Been an avid reader of game and been lurking for the past year or so but finally I think it's about time I get off my lazy ass and actually join the club for real.
The thing is, despite reading so much from Chateau Heartiste, Krauser, Neil Strauss and the likes, I am still at a lost as to where to start. I have trouble absorbing everything and I know that reading is as it is, simply reading. I have to approach sooner or later, but then again, I don't know how to start.
I'm still trying to get over a 2-year long case of oneitis. Mainly not so much because of the girl, but rather for my ego. When I did not have a single clue about game at all (I was raised by a single mother which did nothing for me but turned me beta as fuck as I used to put women on a pedestal, people-pleasing and other shit) I fell in love with this girl and tried to chase her, failing terribly and making a mockery of myself. What I did probably went against every fundamental of game and commandment of poon that I cringe at my pathetic past. I used to think she was out of my league, stare at her a lot, talk to her too much and told her my honest feelings a few months later only to get rejected (I guess I definitely deserved it).
I only discovered the Game community a year ago and I think this is a great community of extremely intelligent and like-minded people who want to help each other on the path of self-improvement. I really wish I can fix my past by successfully going back and start gaming that chick again now but I doubt it's possible after fucking up so hard isn't it? Sometimes I just want to move on on this journey of Game like the forums say, that more pussy is the cure of all oneitis problems. But really, my ego will never forgive me for being so fucking beta.
I really wish to improve myself and my game, I am now lifting regularly and am well-cut, making sure I am impeccably dressed always and at least the alpha male in more than one circle of friends but with zero to no experience and a ton of beta/past ghosts haunting me, I always feel like I still have many creases to iron out. Sometimes I wish a mentor or fellow reformed beta could share some experiences for me to learn from and help me along the way so that I can become a better man, not just to get pussy, but for myself.