0 kilos down and I ain't even begun yet.
07-03-2012, 03:27 PM
So I'm at 139 kilos last time I've weighed my burly body. I could be over 140 kilos now, most likely I am.
I have never really thought about losing weight, as weirdly as it sounds. I'm a nerd, and I'm a comfortable nerd and although there have been bullies going after me short periods of time, I've always defeated them. Usually right after the first attempt(which takes the form of a 'joke'). I just completely destroy them most usually right away. A few have snuck past by a few moments but it never lasts. There's a weird part of me which enjoys the combat. Which enjoys looking like a soft target and then completely surprising and humiliating them because they thought it'd be an easy picking. It's like a safari for me, only into someone else's head.
So I have never really faced sustained social pressure or outright bullying for my weight. In some weird way, I like being fat. It makes you weaker and stronger at the same time. It means you must be on top of your social game much more. It's like a shorthand.
Still, I've figured that in the end, being very fat isn't good for my health. And the hardening, the trial-by-fire(two guys in the same mental pit, and one must go down) which I so enjoy have mostly been completed by now. I'm in my early 20s and it's the perfect time to start.
I'm still very inexperienced with girls. And I feel like I have the mental basics in order. So approaching girls isn't a problem. But I want to get physical too. And 60 k's of pure fat isn't going to turn me into a sexgod. Nor into someone who has a lot of stamina.
It'll be a fitness diary, a food diary and just a general life diary in-between.
I'm not promising enjoyment or ease. I am promising the nitty gritty. I'm doing this without any operation, special pill or 'miracle cure'.
Hardcore discipline is what will be needed, and for a lazy bum like myself, it'll be quite a challenge. Let's see if I am up for it.
I have never really thought about losing weight, as weirdly as it sounds. I'm a nerd, and I'm a comfortable nerd and although there have been bullies going after me short periods of time, I've always defeated them. Usually right after the first attempt(which takes the form of a 'joke'). I just completely destroy them most usually right away. A few have snuck past by a few moments but it never lasts. There's a weird part of me which enjoys the combat. Which enjoys looking like a soft target and then completely surprising and humiliating them because they thought it'd be an easy picking. It's like a safari for me, only into someone else's head.
So I have never really faced sustained social pressure or outright bullying for my weight. In some weird way, I like being fat. It makes you weaker and stronger at the same time. It means you must be on top of your social game much more. It's like a shorthand.
Still, I've figured that in the end, being very fat isn't good for my health. And the hardening, the trial-by-fire(two guys in the same mental pit, and one must go down) which I so enjoy have mostly been completed by now. I'm in my early 20s and it's the perfect time to start.
I'm still very inexperienced with girls. And I feel like I have the mental basics in order. So approaching girls isn't a problem. But I want to get physical too. And 60 k's of pure fat isn't going to turn me into a sexgod. Nor into someone who has a lot of stamina.
It'll be a fitness diary, a food diary and just a general life diary in-between.
I'm not promising enjoyment or ease. I am promising the nitty gritty. I'm doing this without any operation, special pill or 'miracle cure'.
Hardcore discipline is what will be needed, and for a lazy bum like myself, it'll be quite a challenge. Let's see if I am up for it.