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03-02-2012, 12:11 PM
My original plans were to do 5 months of boxing muay thai training and to get in shape, rewire myself spirituality and mentally and i ended up throwing away my 1st 3 months of travelling chasing pussy, drinking beer, smoking weed and doing nothing productive at all... my return ticket to the US is April 28 and during this 3 months of travel i went to the boxing gym exactly 3 times.
I have basically 1 month and a half to change this by going up to Chiang Mai and getting serious.. what exactly can i achieve in 1 12 of training?
Why do I lack the motivation? Iv'e thrown away thousands of dollars sleeping around and partying and wasted time and money i will never get back.
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03-02-2012, 12:20 PM
Well I mean..
The answer is spend the next few months doing what you intended to do, and don't get side-tracked.
As far as, 'What am I going to do in only 1.5 months,' the answer is probably going to be more than you have in the last three months.
Feeling down is a waste of time, just consider this a valuable lesson. Drop the weed completely, get rid of the alcohol if you have to. Fuck, if you're chasing girls all the time and that is getting in the way of actual goals, forget them for a while. It isn't like those things are going to have run out by the time you've hit the gym hard.
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03-02-2012, 12:34 PM
Train when you get back. If the pussy is flowing keep at it. Get drunk and smoke more weed and have as many threesomes as possible.
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03-02-2012, 10:23 PM
Quote: (03-02-2012 12:11 PM)FilMor Wrote:
My original plans were to do 5 months of boxing muay thai training and to get in shape, rewire myself spirituality and mentally and i ended up throwing away my 1st 3 months of travelling chasing pussy, drinking beer, smoking weed and doing nothing productive at all... my return ticket to the US is April 28 and during this 3 months of travel i went to the boxing gym exactly 3 times.
I have basically 1 month and a half to change this by going up to Chiang Mai and getting serious.. what exactly can i achieve in 1 12 of training?
Why do I lack the motivation? Iv'e thrown away thousands of dollars sleeping around and partying and wasted time and money i will never get back.
The only money you have thrown away has been that for the alcohol.
Weed and vagina are retsorative and will help make a man complete.
That said, it sounds like you need a time out. Separate yourself from noise and sitraction for 3 days. Smoke lots of weed, drink ample water, do all of this as far away from internet and smart phones and noise and electricity as possible.
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03-03-2012, 01:29 AM
Quote: (03-02-2012 12:11 PM)FilMor Wrote:
My original plans were to do 5 months of boxing muay thai training and to get in shape, rewire myself spirituality and mentally and i ended up throwing away my 1st 3 months of travelling chasing pussy, drinking beer, smoking weed and doing nothing productive at all... my return ticket to the US is April 28 and during this 3 months of travel i went to the boxing gym exactly 3 times.
I have basically 1 month and a half to change this by going up to Chiang Mai and getting serious.. what exactly can i achieve in 1 12 of training?
Why do I lack the motivation? Iv'e thrown away thousands of dollars sleeping around and partying and wasted time and money i will never get back.
And you're complaining?
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03-03-2012, 08:02 AM
How was your life back home?
Was it pretty much the same wild partying over and over or was it more "orderly"?
If your trip was something different from what you did back home, don't beat yourself so much on it. You ought to be living a crazy period of your life right now, which all go through at some point. If this crazy partying is not your "norm" don't sweat.
If it is just the same pattern you had back home over somewhere else, you ought to look deeper into that. Lack of focus, grounding, prioritizing...
An interesting point that I see is how people "plan" what they will be doing when they travel to a place or whatever and then it never goes as expected. I already have this attitude where I just know things won't be according to what I planned, and chill. I can still have an idea of what I want to do, but I know it will never be quite as I expected, and I just have to be flexible about it.
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03-03-2012, 01:02 PM
"I spent a lot of money on booze, birds and fast cars. The rest I just squandered." - George Best
I can't have sex with your personality, and I can't put my penis in your college degree, and I can't shove my fist in your childhood dreams, so why are you sharing all this information with me?
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03-03-2012, 01:59 PM
What happened to Tudobem? Did I miss what kind of troll he morphed into?
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03-04-2012, 05:48 AM
Filmor you fuckin's muppet!! Get your shit straight. You came to the forum looking for sympathy. Not gonna get it here. Now you have a choice from your peers. So I'm gonna give you mine.
You set ur sites high. And failed. So what. Shit happens. I fail EVERYDAY of my life. But I "endeavor to persevere".
If you've spent that much time fucking off and have nothing to show for it.....well... congrats. You still make the top .0001 of the board that actually went forth and did it.
Now you have 2 paths:
1. Total sober up. Go get beat up in karate.
2. Slow the fuck down. Put your head on straight and stay the course, just don't hit the iceberg. Spend the last part of your trip getting the form down before heading home. You need something that draws you back on the positive.
I ain't judging you Filmore. I've been there. And still will.
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03-04-2012, 06:05 AM
You guys check it. Don't judge before drawing down. Here's the start of my run.
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03-04-2012, 10:21 AM
Quote: (03-04-2012 08:20 AM)Smitty Wrote:
Quote: (03-04-2012 05:48 AM)Aliblahba Wrote:
If you've spent that much time fucking off and have nothing to show for it.....well... congrats. You still make the top .0001 of the board that actually went forth and did it.
This! Could be a lot worse for you Filmor. Embrace the experience and move on.
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03-04-2012, 10:26 AM
Quote: (03-04-2012 08:20 AM)Smitty Wrote:
Quote: (03-04-2012 05:48 AM)Aliblahba Wrote:
If you've spent that much time fucking off and have nothing to show for it.....well... congrats. You still make the top .0001 of the board that actually went forth and did it.
This! Could be a lot worse for you Filmor. Embrace the experience and move on.
I felt like that when I got drunk and rawdogged a hooker in '98. You'll live Filmore. Charge it to the game.
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03-04-2012, 10:38 AM
I remember when I was in 6th grade I was over a neighbors house and he hold me "I'm going down to the river to party with some girls"
What? Party? You're going to have a party? No going to party. Girl with girl X Y and Z. Huh. I went down and watched them get drunk and stoned, make out etc.
I jumped right in on this.
Did I get what I wanted to do accomplished in the last 30 years? No.
When you get to be my age the memories or lack of what you just did are whats going to make you have a perm-a-grin on your face.
Not karate camp.