[AnonymousBosch]

(07-04-2014 03:06 PM)thedude3737 Wrote:  

I no longer meet people halfway or compromise in the ways I used to. I feel that this has been one of the many side effects of taking the red pill. Anytime I hear the voice of the blue pill, "Just go along with it, it'll be okay, it's much easier and more comfortable this way" I dig my heels in. It's starting to manifest itself in mostly little ways on a daily basis.

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I'm starting to see people as animals. The men, I mostly want to destroy. Certain women, I want to mate with. Very rare men, I want to be my hunting partner. And that's really it. That's what I've reduced much of my social human existence to.

I always had my suspicions about average people, but my eight months of reading the manosphere and the topics it talks about has convinced me the majority of people are worthless, too lazy to be bothered to even try to help themselves, let alone ever realise they can be in charge of their own lives.

There's been some kind of definite sea change in the younger generation. They're religiously-obsessed with moderating everyone's morality whilst making excuses for their own, hate any kind of success, are obsessed with joyless entertainment about miserable people that confirms their cynical outlook of the world, and want to drag everyone down into the gutter with them. They get their thrills through *negativity*, and this has poisoned popular music, movies, television and, especially, journalism. Their minds are toxic, they're socially-awkward and avoidant of real connection, and seem utterly-depressed.

It's made me realise how happy I am in my life. I've worked hard. I can usually achieve any goal I set. Life is good. I've had hard times, sure, but I've cultivated enough resilience by the knockbacks I've had to know there's not much that can sink me, especially as I've lived through some brutal enough shit that I simply can't imagine anything more emotionally-horrific than what I've seen happening to me again.

With that, comes peace and acceptance. You have one life, so seize the day, and don't let losers dictate how you should live.

I wonder if this is simply a sense of growing maturity. I'm currently in a position where I have a movie coming out in November - everyone in the cast and crew said my character was 'terrifying', when all I thought I was doing was being a man. The average person now responds with fear at any kind of evidence of masculine strength.

I fell into it by accident through my music, and it wasn't something I wanted, and now I'm seriously-questioning if I even want to be noticed by the world.

My acting coach has been teaching me about crafting a 'Public Persona': he said it's the person you pretend to be so the general public doesn't hate your guts for sticking your head up. Ever wonder why everyone in the media is so damn false? Do I really want to jump through these bullshit hoops like every other vacuous celebrity fuck I see? I find it offensive as a man.

Before anyone says "Game Potential!" No. As I said, there's been a sea change. I don't think women are impressed with celebrity anymore, because, thanks to social media, in their minds they already are celebrities. If anything, being widely-known would restrict my game possibilities.

The modern woman is miserable and negative enough to find more power out of tearing down a celebrity who shows interest in her to show the herd she's more powerful than them. We're a generation or so out from another reign of terror, whether it's literal or not. Celebrities are to be mocked and knocked off their pedestal. See James Franco, Robin Thicke et al.

I don't need the money, because I don't need money to be happy.

Hell, I have an album I've been working on for a few years coming out sometime in the first half of next year, and I'm seriously questioning releasing it. I achieved what I set out to do with it, pushed myself beyond what I thought my capabilities were and am damn happy with it. Since I'm my own strongest critic, no-one can really offer me criticism or affirmation, so why release it?

People around me are invested in it, because they're seeing a train going somewhere and are trying to climb aboard, and with that, how can what I create be commercially-exploited? "Hey, we need a second mix of that track as an instrumental for synch licensing purposes." "You should change that line. It won't work under a car commercial."



My game mentor is a brilliant man. He had a listen and said: "Be very careful, Bosch. You might just get everything normal people want, including the attention of normal people."

Do I want to be noticed by a toxic society? Or am I better going the William James Sidis route: be brilliant whilst remaining anonymous, not getting caught up in people's bullshit, and reserving my energy for my own goals in life.

Any advice from anyone who knows fame? Is it as tedious, false and counterproductive as it seems? I doubt I would be questioning this so hard if I hadn't discovered the manosphere, but I really don't want to smile and eat shit just to play the game.