Quote: (11-07-2017 04:21 PM)goldenhinde Wrote:
Those of you who follow the Philippines thread know that I returned from my first Phils trip about a month ago.
Ever since then, I have real difficulties dealing with daily life and the usual nuisances here in fucked up Munich, Germany. It's just so dragging and boring from the moment I get up until the moment I come home at night and can finally get my mind traveling a little by reading or watching stuff about other countries at least, such as youtube videos where guys film a walk in the bustling centre of Cali, Colombia with all the fruit juice and food stands, the hot chicks in short clothes and the amazing weather.
It's not just after the PH trip that I had this, this feeling of deep boredom and despise for daily life in boring Germany has been building up inside me for quite some years now; I've had it already 10 or more years ago when returning from trips to NYC or California.
But this time, it hits me really hard. I see the cold, stuck-up, over-entitled, dressed-like-guys girls on the subway, the angry, closed-off, narrow-minded people everywhere, the weather sucks as hell and I spend my days in the daily office grind with boring paper-pushing and somehow getting my chores done in the two hours after I finish work when the stores are still open. Stores in Munich fucking close at 8pm, can you imagine that! I can't even buy a fucking fruit juice or a frozen pizza when I walk home from a friend at 10pm. This place feels cold, dead and everyone here is looking like a zombie to me, because there is nothing fucking interesting in this boring shithole of a village-like city.
Rant end; I need to convert my energy into sth more rewarding and that's why I decided to re-visit PH as soon as possible and that's what I'm looking for the most to.
Still, it's really hard to even focus all day. Everything I do, I'm not really there while I'm here in Munich. The subway commute, the grocery store, the streets, the office, the colleagues and their stories, the work - it's the same repetitive shit like I'm the protagonist of Groundhog Day, except it doesn't get better by trying to change things because the only thing that'll help me is a change of location obviously...
I will never get how the "normal", blue-pill guys in my office can endure this for all their lives, without even questioning it or even knowing that there is something else out there, the only travels they ever make to the same Austrian mountain village and the same Spanish mass-tourism, germanized seaside resort for decades.
Very similar to how I felt after my first trip to EE a couple of years ago. Incubus' post makes a lot of sense to how I felt at that point and still do to this day. For the time being, I have got a good girl (virgin, younger, feminine, nurse etc) here in Scotland and still traveling solo and with her. I do like Scotland for a many reasons but see similarities in the cities here that seem similar to you in Munich. I enjoy life much more when in nature (rural). I am always working, investing, saving and travel frequently while thinking of where to live if things go well with her or if it does not work out. Time is on my side so who knows though but i do still think with urgency. I do want a family by 30/35. There are good girls here for the right man though. I thought the average German was one of the most well-travelled people in the world. Clearly not going by your last sentence.