Ok, so you acknowledge you want a close friend. That's a good start. I understand it's not gonna be easy, but at least you've got something to work towards.
Traveling isn't conducive for that. Unless you stay put in the same area for long periods of time, it's gonna be hard to form close connections with locals. Those take time, usually through shared activities. Perhaps you could join a meetup group that requires shared activities that minimize the need to be a social butterfly, maybe something like a hiking group. After enough sessions, maybe they'll grow comfortable with you and be willing to form tighter bonds.
Have you tried searching the forums for threads about forming friendships and growing your social circle?
Traveling isn't conducive for that. Unless you stay put in the same area for long periods of time, it's gonna be hard to form close connections with locals. Those take time, usually through shared activities. Perhaps you could join a meetup group that requires shared activities that minimize the need to be a social butterfly, maybe something like a hiking group. After enough sessions, maybe they'll grow comfortable with you and be willing to form tighter bonds.
Have you tried searching the forums for threads about forming friendships and growing your social circle?