Quote: (10-20-2015 04:18 PM)SuperBock Wrote:
It's early days for me but i think I too have the same thing. I have only ever had this one 15 year relationship my entire life, so when I found stuff out and lost my shit, I think I basically got my heart broken for the first time (at age 35!)
In the 7 months since, which have been emotionally some of the toughest in my adult life, I have been unable to shed a single tear, even when I tried to, thinking it may be good for me.
I described it to someone as literally feeling locked up inside.
This may sound normal to some people but I have always been a very emotional person, even in my wilder days of fighting a lot and anger, I would also cry easily at anything sad.
But now, my emotional level is like a flat line, it hardly raises anymore, at least regarding my relationship.
Emotional blunting can be one of the many signs of depression. I found myself able to cry more easily when I came to third world Asia where people have real problems and getting your heart broken is mild compared to the chronic illness and early death most people suffer.
In particular there was one very short girl who I was in contact with who explained to me that she didn't like going outside because people would stare at her. "I'm like a dwarf."
I asked her if she was able to have sex, if she wanted to have children.
She said "Yes, if someone will accept me."
That broke me up, and still does. She doesn't want Chris Hemsworth.
Just someone that will accept her.