Hi RooshV! It's my first time using a forum, so I apologize if I'm doing anything that violates conduct.
I'll preface my issues by explaining a little bit about myself. In grade school, I met a girl who I became close friends with. We started dating in high school, and I proposed to her when I was 20 years old. I had known her for most of my life, and I loved her. Two years ago, she was killed in a hit and run. Needless to say, the last two years have been hell, and the feeling of emptiness has been overwhelming.
I find myself mentally comparing other women I see on dating apps and in person, to my deceased fiancée and it's an extremely frustrating process that I can't avoid doing; it's automatic. She looked like a hazel eyed Megan Fox, she was in paediatric residency and she was genuinely kind. Looks alone, I can't find anyone that I find attractive as her. It makes me feel as I'll never find anyone as good as her just in the realm of beauty, let alone other attributes like intelligence, other women may lack.
I'm at a point where I don't want to love another woman anymore, as I feel it would be a betrayal to her memory. I do have urges for sex though, and that leads me to my current position.
Since high school I pursued modelling. I was fairly successful at it, being hired by some big companies like Calvin Klein, et al.. I like to think my appearance is my biggest attribute. I do sometimes get women who approach me, however, I am horrible with women and as soon as I talk they tend to get annoyed. Before my fiancée, I was fine taking to women, because I didn't want anything. Now I get intimated, especially by attractive women. I feel I don't have anything to offer. I'm uneducated, I'm not well off financially and I get so nervous talking to women I come off as pretentious and a little weird.
I'm 26 years old, and I'm going to school this year to pursue medicine in memory of my fiancée. I want to meet girls in school, but I'm scared at my age, they'll look down on me for not being educated. I'm also scared that I'll come off as fake. I like to think I'm a good person with morals, and it seems a lot of people here say one needs to be a bit of an asshole to get laid. I don't drink or smoke either, so I'll feel out of place at parties.
I guess my question is, based on my situation, is there any hope for me to learn game and become the type of guy to sleep around? I can't envision myself getting tons women or being a player. I don't know where to begin. Any advice on how I should proceed is appreciated.
I'll preface my issues by explaining a little bit about myself. In grade school, I met a girl who I became close friends with. We started dating in high school, and I proposed to her when I was 20 years old. I had known her for most of my life, and I loved her. Two years ago, she was killed in a hit and run. Needless to say, the last two years have been hell, and the feeling of emptiness has been overwhelming.
I find myself mentally comparing other women I see on dating apps and in person, to my deceased fiancée and it's an extremely frustrating process that I can't avoid doing; it's automatic. She looked like a hazel eyed Megan Fox, she was in paediatric residency and she was genuinely kind. Looks alone, I can't find anyone that I find attractive as her. It makes me feel as I'll never find anyone as good as her just in the realm of beauty, let alone other attributes like intelligence, other women may lack.
I'm at a point where I don't want to love another woman anymore, as I feel it would be a betrayal to her memory. I do have urges for sex though, and that leads me to my current position.
Since high school I pursued modelling. I was fairly successful at it, being hired by some big companies like Calvin Klein, et al.. I like to think my appearance is my biggest attribute. I do sometimes get women who approach me, however, I am horrible with women and as soon as I talk they tend to get annoyed. Before my fiancée, I was fine taking to women, because I didn't want anything. Now I get intimated, especially by attractive women. I feel I don't have anything to offer. I'm uneducated, I'm not well off financially and I get so nervous talking to women I come off as pretentious and a little weird.
I'm 26 years old, and I'm going to school this year to pursue medicine in memory of my fiancée. I want to meet girls in school, but I'm scared at my age, they'll look down on me for not being educated. I'm also scared that I'll come off as fake. I like to think I'm a good person with morals, and it seems a lot of people here say one needs to be a bit of an asshole to get laid. I don't drink or smoke either, so I'll feel out of place at parties.
I guess my question is, based on my situation, is there any hope for me to learn game and become the type of guy to sleep around? I can't envision myself getting tons women or being a player. I don't know where to begin. Any advice on how I should proceed is appreciated.