Hey there guys,
Hows it going?
You can call me Jay, the1element is kind of difficult to write out all the time.
One of my passions in life is writing, I write a lot, about 3 pages a day with pen and paper, plus notes, little quips, articles and content I write online. I hope I can use this journal and help other men go through similar struggles and obstacles.
I'm going through a lot of changes in my life and I have sights to make 2018 my best year yet (2017 could have been but I got lax cause I got a GF)
So let's drop my current stats.
Age: 23
All-time lays: 13
Tinder: 7
Real life: 3
Tumblr: 1 (Had another, she was virgin, did everything but)
OKC: 2
POF: 1
Level of attractiveness for each lay (scale of 10) I lost my virginity when I was 20.
1. 5 (Decently fat, came over directly from Tinder)
2. 5 (Big boned, a bit fat, pretty face Tinder)
3. 4 (Really plump, pretty face but fat face Tinder)
4. 6 (Hot body, kinda fucked up very short hair Real Life (met at a hostel)
5. 6 (Hot body, fucked up, long hair, she got a motel for the weekend cause she was travelling so we just hung out and fucked. OkCupid)
6. 6 maybe 7 (Good body, she was cool, a little hipster and a bit of a feminist, FWB for a month. Tinder)
7. 5 (Tight body, very petite, she wore a wig though and I pulled it off when I grabbed her hair while she was giving me a BJ in my car. Goofy personality, strange girl OkCupid)
8. 4 (Fat, smelled like curry.Tinder)
9. 4 (Rugby player, slut Tinder)
10. 4 (Pretty face, but really meh body. Indian but didn't smell. First time I fucked a girl in the ass POF)
11. 6 (Dated her for under a year, really pretty face and personality. She has a little too much weight, if she lost 10-15lbs she'd be really hot. Lost interest in her because the weight never went away.Real Life Cold Approach)
12. 6 (She was a trainee at the retail job I worked at earlier in the year, she was good looking, kind of a flirt and very flighty but we had fun. Made my mates at work jealous.Real Life)
13. 3 MAYBE a 4 (This was a slump buster, my GF (#11) broke up with me and I was in a month dry spell. Met her off Tumblr. A nice girl, but just too big for me..fuck man. I wouldn't have even banged her but she let me do anything, fucked her ass, everything. Had to psyche myself up to bang her.)
That's my past history, not too proud of it especially the earlier bangs but I try not to think about it. It's easy to begin questioning your own value of a man when you are only banging ugly girls.
Many of the Tinder girls were similar to this.
The GF was this
A LITTLE bit bigger in the stomach area.
________________________
So what type of girl do I want?
Well, here's the typical girl I'm attracted to.
- This would be my ideal girl.
Face is really important to me. I love the sultry look that some girls have in their eyes.
Typically, girls that look like this. I like artistic girls but not CRAZY artistic or super hipster. The few models I've met in my life, I've gotten along good with them.
It's really important for a girl to put an effort in her dress though, the ideal girl would be one that wears a lot of skirts and heels or just skirts. I love skirts.
I'm still kind of finding what I like though.
_____________________________
2018 Goals
- Run an online business, start to have a following (I need numbers on this)
- Save 20k
- Workout consistently (again I need numbers but I'm small as FUCK 150lbs 6' tall)
- Completely STOP using Tinder
- Read more books (I need to hash this out)
- Watch more films (Again, I need to hash this out)
- Debt Free (About 2k of debt)
- Build a network of like minded guys and cool, hot women
- 10 New lays, no fat girls
- Move out and live on my own, new city (Currently live with my mom)
(Truth be told, I wrote this now..I thought I wrote out a 2018 goals list but I guess I didn't. I just had the December 2017 one...odd)
Current Month Goals
- Morning Pages Everyday (Write three pages of stream of concious writing, helps with clearing up my thinking and mind) (I've kept these up every day)
- Affirmations Everyday (I missed one day)
- Finish Convict Conditioning (Fitness Book, halfway through)
- Watch 10 films (I've watched 2 so far. French Connection and Manchester By The Sea)
- Read Genesis (halfway through)
- One new notch (done, fat disgusting Tumblr girl)
- Find a new job (Still looking, I want something as a server/bartender but most places are hired up until the new year)
- Finish Ayn Rand Atlas Shrugged (50 Pages in)
- Re-Create vision Board (Haven't started, can't afford coloured ink right now..lmao)
- Figure out what you want to do for online business (Done, in process of validating the idea right now)
- Finish Osho - Creativity (About 50% done)
- Go on five dates (Been on two this month, both bleh Tinder garbage girls)
_____________________________
So, where am I at in my life right now?..How am I working to achieve these goals?
Well, right now I am broke.
Which hurts me from doing a lot of the shit I really want to do, like meeting new people, making connections and getting into higher-end social circles.
Gas right now is a stretch, I need to lay low until either the new year or I get lucky and find work before the new year. I have enough cash to get me by this month and a bit of January. I know I'll get something in the new year though. 100%.
I'm using a lot of this downtime to expand my mind, read more and also work on my online business.
The business idea I've gone with is creating a sort of "online presence" and becoming the go-to person for the particular niche.
The niche involves what makes a man "cool", trying to dissect famous cool men, figuring out what made them tick, how they were cool and distilling "cool" into something that men can learn themselves. I plan to start with a podcast, I already have some of the equipment required from my YouTube days.
Right now though, I'm testing the idea by creating a few post series and posting them to social media and Reddit, gauging response and interest. If the posts are successful then I'll go into getting a domain and marketing.
The post I'm currently working on is
"The Factors That Made Steve McQueen Irresistible To Women And Men"
When it's done, I'm going to post it in this journal as well as other social media outlets.
Other than reading, I've been working on photography a lot and spending more time outside.
I'll probably end up posting some of my pictures later on in the thread.
Anyways,
That's enough for now.
Cheers,
Jay
And for reading this shit here's some eye candy.
Enjoy -
Hows it going?
You can call me Jay, the1element is kind of difficult to write out all the time.
One of my passions in life is writing, I write a lot, about 3 pages a day with pen and paper, plus notes, little quips, articles and content I write online. I hope I can use this journal and help other men go through similar struggles and obstacles.
I'm going through a lot of changes in my life and I have sights to make 2018 my best year yet (2017 could have been but I got lax cause I got a GF)
So let's drop my current stats.
Age: 23
All-time lays: 13
Tinder: 7
Real life: 3
Tumblr: 1 (Had another, she was virgin, did everything but)
OKC: 2
POF: 1
Level of attractiveness for each lay (scale of 10) I lost my virginity when I was 20.
1. 5 (Decently fat, came over directly from Tinder)
2. 5 (Big boned, a bit fat, pretty face Tinder)
3. 4 (Really plump, pretty face but fat face Tinder)
4. 6 (Hot body, kinda fucked up very short hair Real Life (met at a hostel)
5. 6 (Hot body, fucked up, long hair, she got a motel for the weekend cause she was travelling so we just hung out and fucked. OkCupid)
6. 6 maybe 7 (Good body, she was cool, a little hipster and a bit of a feminist, FWB for a month. Tinder)
7. 5 (Tight body, very petite, she wore a wig though and I pulled it off when I grabbed her hair while she was giving me a BJ in my car. Goofy personality, strange girl OkCupid)
8. 4 (Fat, smelled like curry.Tinder)
9. 4 (Rugby player, slut Tinder)
10. 4 (Pretty face, but really meh body. Indian but didn't smell. First time I fucked a girl in the ass POF)
11. 6 (Dated her for under a year, really pretty face and personality. She has a little too much weight, if she lost 10-15lbs she'd be really hot. Lost interest in her because the weight never went away.Real Life Cold Approach)
12. 6 (She was a trainee at the retail job I worked at earlier in the year, she was good looking, kind of a flirt and very flighty but we had fun. Made my mates at work jealous.Real Life)
13. 3 MAYBE a 4 (This was a slump buster, my GF (#11) broke up with me and I was in a month dry spell. Met her off Tumblr. A nice girl, but just too big for me..fuck man. I wouldn't have even banged her but she let me do anything, fucked her ass, everything. Had to psyche myself up to bang her.)
That's my past history, not too proud of it especially the earlier bangs but I try not to think about it. It's easy to begin questioning your own value of a man when you are only banging ugly girls.
Many of the Tinder girls were similar to this.
The GF was this
A LITTLE bit bigger in the stomach area.
________________________
So what type of girl do I want?
Well, here's the typical girl I'm attracted to.
- This would be my ideal girl.
Face is really important to me. I love the sultry look that some girls have in their eyes.
Typically, girls that look like this. I like artistic girls but not CRAZY artistic or super hipster. The few models I've met in my life, I've gotten along good with them.
It's really important for a girl to put an effort in her dress though, the ideal girl would be one that wears a lot of skirts and heels or just skirts. I love skirts.
I'm still kind of finding what I like though.
_____________________________
2018 Goals
- Run an online business, start to have a following (I need numbers on this)
- Save 20k
- Workout consistently (again I need numbers but I'm small as FUCK 150lbs 6' tall)
- Completely STOP using Tinder
- Read more books (I need to hash this out)
- Watch more films (Again, I need to hash this out)
- Debt Free (About 2k of debt)
- Build a network of like minded guys and cool, hot women
- 10 New lays, no fat girls
- Move out and live on my own, new city (Currently live with my mom)
(Truth be told, I wrote this now..I thought I wrote out a 2018 goals list but I guess I didn't. I just had the December 2017 one...odd)
Current Month Goals
- Morning Pages Everyday (Write three pages of stream of concious writing, helps with clearing up my thinking and mind) (I've kept these up every day)
- Affirmations Everyday (I missed one day)
- Finish Convict Conditioning (Fitness Book, halfway through)
- Watch 10 films (I've watched 2 so far. French Connection and Manchester By The Sea)
- Read Genesis (halfway through)
- One new notch (done, fat disgusting Tumblr girl)
- Find a new job (Still looking, I want something as a server/bartender but most places are hired up until the new year)
- Finish Ayn Rand Atlas Shrugged (50 Pages in)
- Re-Create vision Board (Haven't started, can't afford coloured ink right now..lmao)
- Figure out what you want to do for online business (Done, in process of validating the idea right now)
- Finish Osho - Creativity (About 50% done)
- Go on five dates (Been on two this month, both bleh Tinder garbage girls)
_____________________________
So, where am I at in my life right now?..How am I working to achieve these goals?
Well, right now I am broke.
Which hurts me from doing a lot of the shit I really want to do, like meeting new people, making connections and getting into higher-end social circles.
Gas right now is a stretch, I need to lay low until either the new year or I get lucky and find work before the new year. I have enough cash to get me by this month and a bit of January. I know I'll get something in the new year though. 100%.
I'm using a lot of this downtime to expand my mind, read more and also work on my online business.
The business idea I've gone with is creating a sort of "online presence" and becoming the go-to person for the particular niche.
The niche involves what makes a man "cool", trying to dissect famous cool men, figuring out what made them tick, how they were cool and distilling "cool" into something that men can learn themselves. I plan to start with a podcast, I already have some of the equipment required from my YouTube days.
Right now though, I'm testing the idea by creating a few post series and posting them to social media and Reddit, gauging response and interest. If the posts are successful then I'll go into getting a domain and marketing.
The post I'm currently working on is
"The Factors That Made Steve McQueen Irresistible To Women And Men"
When it's done, I'm going to post it in this journal as well as other social media outlets.
Other than reading, I've been working on photography a lot and spending more time outside.
I'll probably end up posting some of my pictures later on in the thread.
Anyways,
That's enough for now.
Cheers,
Jay
And for reading this shit here's some eye candy.
Enjoy -