Quote: (05-06-2017 03:14 PM)Svoboda Wrote:
^^^^
Is this about the one that also used to be a whore and went back to whoring again while you were together?
No, that's two different wives.
Wife #1: 24-year-old bisexual Jewish genderqueer borderline personality disordered feminist SJW prostitute Tumblrista (left me two months into the marriage, then had my kid, then died by suicide four months later, after CPS took the kid)
Wife #2: 28-year-old Filipina, described in
this post. (That was written shortly after she got here, when we were in our newlywed phase.)
With the first one, I was very blue pill, and ignored all red flags because they were spun as positives. Oh, she's Jewish? That means she can help me create the next top-ten website, like Mark Zuckerberg! Oh, she's a prostitute? That means she's entrepreneurial! Oh, she's a feminist SJW Tumblrista? That means we can relate to each other, since we're both intellectuals and political activists! Oh, she cuts herself and attempts suicide sometimes? I get depressed too; so we'll understand what each other go through sometimes. Oh, she's transgendered? All that testosterone caused her clit to grow and made her hornier. Oh, she's borderline personality disordered? That just creates another way we can relate to each other, because they used to say I was personality disordered too. We're both outcasts, so it'll be us against the world!
Most of all, though, she promised me everything under the sun, and I believed it. As it turned out, she couldn't/wouldn't fulfill her promises. For example, before we got married, she told me that she would be okay with my banging other chicks, but actually it turned out that she got pretty jealous when I was about to try to go bang another chick.
So, the next time around, I figured -- okay! This time I'm going to marry a Filipina, so that I won't have to worry about the bad influence of American culture on her. I'm going to make sure that she's someone with a legit career, rather than a prostitute. And I'm going to make sure that I get very specific promises from her that are crystal clear and unmistakable, to cover all foreseen contingencies. By this point, I had read a few RoK articles here and there, but I wouldn't say that I had yet learned enough to be red-pilled.
Well, here I erred in that I still assumed that desire, or at least compliance, could be negotiated. I failed to take
Briffault's Law into account. And I failed to take into account the fact that, all else equal,
girls in their late 20s aren't as good as girls in their early 20s. And I failed to take into account that girls who have had their hearts broken a couple times already are damaged goods. In this case, I think there was a certain amount of alpha widowhood going on. She would compare me to her ex; e.g. I'd tell her to suck my dick and she'd say, "Glenn didn't expect me to do that for him." (Blowjobs aren't as common in Filipino culture.)
If there's a next time, I'm going to make sure that I have my shit together (e.g. probably with at least a year's tenure at whatever job I'm at), and I'm going to look for an 18-year-old virgin who doesn't use Facebook. Even then, though, I have to wonder, once you slap that ring on her, what's to keep her from getting fat, cutting her hair short, and doing other stuff you'd rather she not do? Oh, use dread game on her? How are you going to do that after you have kids together?
I'm a little bit behind the 8-ball right now with regard to my career, in that my profession is accounting, yet if you google me, there are all these news articles about how I'm a convicted felon, which tends to preclude me from holding accounting jobs. Plus there's the fact that my job performance at every trade I've gotten into has tended to be marginal at best anyway. Maybe I should just stay single and not reproduce, because I'm not in the greatest position to support a wife and kids, unless I happen to win the lottery.
You know how it's so common to look back and say, "Gee, if I could only rewind to the past, and live my 20s again with the knowledge I have now"? That thought crosses my mind sometimes, but then I wonder if it would've made any difference. Therefore, I feel more as though I'd like to have an opportunity to
reroll my character and get some different strengths. Since that's not an option, I guess I have to come up with some other idea.
The plan was, my second wife was going to start a business in the U.S., and I would work with her on that business. That didn't happen, because it turned out she wasn't able to come up with a business idea. As MCGOO put it, you have to adjust the estimates women give you: "Notches times three. Women's plans that come to fruition: divide by three."
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