Today I was talking to a game mentor and told him living in a small town the best place I've found for approaching girls is Walmart but it feels weired to go to walmart to find girls. He said "you've got to do what you've got to do or you can move somewhere else. you live only once."
After the conversation was finished something seems to awaken in me, like the guy in Matrix. But then isn't moving a kind of escape? I mean of course I'd love to live in a beautiful and cheap place with abundant sunshine and pretty well dressed feminine smiling and welcoming girls and having a variety of sources of passive income that let me focus on reading, my hobbies, working out, traveling and research. (I do the latter now but I need to do it for a living.)
I lived in Europe for about 5 years and even though I traveled while there quite a bit, most of my time there was wasted (depression, not having game, etc). Now that I think back, that period feels literally like a dream. And I tell myself the period I have now in the US may also end as fast as a dream without much gain (in terms of pleasure, resume, experiences etc). (For the record I'm an immigrant from a fucked up 3rd world country and that's the only citizenship or permanent residence I've got. It makes thing complicated in terms of (at least) mobility.)
So the message is that I'm not (and have not been) really living my life but is moving the best way go about it? As you see I've moved quite a bit already. I was reading Quintus's article on frame on ROK and he quotes Schopenhauer "The world is my idea". It seems to promote adjusting and taking advantage of what you've got over moving. I've recently been applying this in my job, trying to find projects I can collaborate on with more senior members even to the point of being pesky.
After the conversation was finished something seems to awaken in me, like the guy in Matrix. But then isn't moving a kind of escape? I mean of course I'd love to live in a beautiful and cheap place with abundant sunshine and pretty well dressed feminine smiling and welcoming girls and having a variety of sources of passive income that let me focus on reading, my hobbies, working out, traveling and research. (I do the latter now but I need to do it for a living.)
I lived in Europe for about 5 years and even though I traveled while there quite a bit, most of my time there was wasted (depression, not having game, etc). Now that I think back, that period feels literally like a dream. And I tell myself the period I have now in the US may also end as fast as a dream without much gain (in terms of pleasure, resume, experiences etc). (For the record I'm an immigrant from a fucked up 3rd world country and that's the only citizenship or permanent residence I've got. It makes thing complicated in terms of (at least) mobility.)
So the message is that I'm not (and have not been) really living my life but is moving the best way go about it? As you see I've moved quite a bit already. I was reading Quintus's article on frame on ROK and he quotes Schopenhauer "The world is my idea". It seems to promote adjusting and taking advantage of what you've got over moving. I've recently been applying this in my job, trying to find projects I can collaborate on with more senior members even to the point of being pesky.
A whore ain't nothing but a trick to a pimp. (Iceberg Slim)
Beauty is in the erection of the beholder. (duedue)
Grab your life by the pussy.
A better question to ask is "What EXACTLY do I want out of life and what EXACTLY am I doing to get EXACTLY that? If you can answer that question truthfully you will be the most Alpha motherfucker you will ever need to be. (PapayaTapper)