[Phazlenut]

I agree with the posters above. OP, sort your alcoholism out first. Addictions to meds and whatnot should be treated too, but you first of all need to get on the wagon and stay there.

[asdfk]

I was out of town for a holiday, and now I can't reach OP. Not by phone, text and not on the forum. Same for another member. I'm worried. I've met OP and he's a solid, reliable dude. Needless to say he got some issues to sort out. It would ruin my day if he'd OD'd on alcohol. Has anyone had direct contact with OP since april 1?

Oh, and I don't agree on the alcoholism. Addiction is the consequence of an absence of stimuli. Better to create an awesome life first and then loose the alcoholism. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PY9DcIMGxMs

[PartManPartMonkey]

^^ Creating an awesome life while being an alcoholic sounds difficult. How would that work?

[asdfk]

I can't reveal that here as I'm creating a self-help product about that.

[Andy_B]

(03-24-2016 04:56 AM)Mr. Pink Wrote:  

At around 19 years old I experienced a life implosion that frankly I simply wasn't mentally equipped to deal with. I fell apart. Addiction and self-destructive behaviors soon became a normal part of life for me but through a combination of recklessness, a sharp mind, and good luck, I started making serious bank before I ever hit the true rock bottom that I was blasting full speed towards. Even with taking into account all the money I was hemorrhaging through my destructive choices and habits I was making more money than I knew what to do with for a good two and a half years. In the end however reality caught up to me and I blew through enough money that had I managed rationally, could have set me up for life. Not all is lost though as I locked a decent chunk of it away in a piece of profitable commercial real estate which is providing some modest mostly passive income.

What it all boils down to though is that despite DRASTICALLY changing my life circumstances, at no point did my inner experience ever really change.

This sounds so similar to something I went through in my middle college years that I could have written it myself... Right down to the age it happened (for me it started when I was 18 going on 19, so almost the exact same age).

I used to keep a personal journal and I always referred to this period in my life as "the decline."

I just fell 'off the wagon' in some vague but distinct sense. I started hanging around with the wrong person, and he gave me some very bad advice on something (the specifics are way too embarrassing to go into in detail even semi-anonymously on RVF), and the emotional consequences of the bad decisions I made just wrecked me. I started drinking, popping ritalin and skipping classes compulsively. I took out student loans, when a non-mentally-ruined version of me could have continued paying for school with my job (which I had done successfully my first year). I blew all my savings. I lost touch with all my old friends and started hanging out with a bunch of degenerate misfits. At one point, I was on the verge of declaring bankruptcy, being about 5 months past due on all my bills.

... Then I had a 'lucky break' in the form of a student job that led to me discovering freelancing and becoming self employed. This helped me get on my two feet financially (I would never have been able to survive in a job that actually involved showing up to an office as my sleep schedule was fucked), and for a while, I had convinced myself that I had 'turned things around.'

The thing is though, I didn't. Although I had improved my financial life, that was it. In fact, many other areas of my life got work as I started seeing regular monthly paychecks come in; with the newfound cash, my drug abuse soared to new heights, as I was now able to afford coke once or twice a week, and go on benders more than 5.

I do believe I have made genuine improvements since then, but it has been a long, rocky, messy road.

[asdfk]

The OP is M.I.A. No-one has seen him since the end of march.
If anybody has heard from him in the last few weeks, please send me a PM.