I'm in a clinch about being in a "scene" - I'm curious to hear what you think about it. When I was younger, I used to be a skateboarder and it was pretty cool being part of a group with a common interest. At some point I quit skateboarding and I haven't been in a "scene" ever since. I did kind of think about joining some scene just to have this feeling of belonging somewhere - but I haven't really found any "scene" that I think suits me. For example, there are different types of parties / clubs that cater to certain groups of people, so if you go to these parties regularly you keep seeing the same people and get to know them etc. But first of all I haven't really found a group of people I feel I belong to, and second of all I thought that in all scenes there is a preexisting hierarchy, so if you wanna join this scene you have to fit into it. Many people are using scenes to gain status and make a name for themselves.
In my professional life I have no problem fitting myself into a hierarchy, because the people I work for have achieved a lot in their lives and are very accomplished, and I give them respect for that. But in my free time I don't feel like joining some hierarchy and trying to "climb the ladder" in a scene just to be cool. It's just a hassle and it destroys my frame. So if you don't adjust to the hierarchy and don't try to fit into it, you will never really become part of a preexisting scene.
Did you guys have similar experiences?
When I was in NYC I was very self-sufficient, went out dolo all the time and loved it. I hit on girls all the time and also hooked up with many girls. But at the same time I also didn't belong anywhere really. Not too long ago I moved to Berlin, and I thought I'll make a fresh start and try to become part of a scene here. But I just noticed that it has a bad effect on my frame. If I have the attitude "fuck what everyone thinks" it's just a lot more liberating and empowering than when I kinda have to hold back because I don't want to offend people in a certain "scene". Naturally I am quite direct and dominant, that's why I feel like I have to hold back in social situations to not antagonise certain people.
This has now turned into a pretty long rant, but I hope you know what I'm getting at .. Have you ever had a similar dilemma?
In my professional life I have no problem fitting myself into a hierarchy, because the people I work for have achieved a lot in their lives and are very accomplished, and I give them respect for that. But in my free time I don't feel like joining some hierarchy and trying to "climb the ladder" in a scene just to be cool. It's just a hassle and it destroys my frame. So if you don't adjust to the hierarchy and don't try to fit into it, you will never really become part of a preexisting scene.
Did you guys have similar experiences?
When I was in NYC I was very self-sufficient, went out dolo all the time and loved it. I hit on girls all the time and also hooked up with many girls. But at the same time I also didn't belong anywhere really. Not too long ago I moved to Berlin, and I thought I'll make a fresh start and try to become part of a scene here. But I just noticed that it has a bad effect on my frame. If I have the attitude "fuck what everyone thinks" it's just a lot more liberating and empowering than when I kinda have to hold back because I don't want to offend people in a certain "scene". Naturally I am quite direct and dominant, that's why I feel like I have to hold back in social situations to not antagonise certain people.
This has now turned into a pretty long rant, but I hope you know what I'm getting at .. Have you ever had a similar dilemma?