Quote: (08-14-2018 12:49 AM)Dodgy Wrote:
Quote: (08-13-2018 10:54 PM)the Thing Wrote:
Turkish IRT autistic troll brought me here.. but since I'm already here I should chime in...
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Bro. That was epic. I don't have much to add to that except where and why did you even want to try crack? I get the meth because you like stims. I'm a stim guy myself, but did not like meth at all. I did like taking amphetamines (basically adderall) when I went to a rave in Berlin a few years back, but classic amphetimines (old time speed) isn't readily available because of the popularity of crystal meth in my area.
I'll add that I've taken phenibut and didn't find it to be a pick up drug, more of a general anti-anxiety aid. I eventually ended up taking it before family gatherings or business networking events to get me in a sociable mood.
My go to drug before a night out is a fast strain of kratom. This is perfect for me, gives me energy, puts me in a relaxed social mood, and doesn't have any negative reactions when alcohol is added.
Also, I haven't taken GHB in years (the only place I could source it was the old Silk Road) but regularly take GABA before going to sleep. Definitely feel a change when taken regularly, however, it's not a cure all for anxiety or general feelings of nervousness.
In fact, there is no cure for anxiety or nerves that's part of life. And honestly, I've grown to appreciate that I've been messing around with girls for 20 years now, and I still get nervous and butterflies when I speak to them. It makes me feel young and alive.
Hey bro, glad you enjoyed the read. I used to plate an "Instagram model" (read Dubai porta potty) and oftentimes she'd show up late at my place smelling like a pharmacy on fire.. so the crack was her thing and I tried with her a few times.. never really enjoyed it though. I went for the "turn ho into housewife" challenge too but that was also a flop. Anyway I digress.
Personally I'd take meth over amphetamine paste any day since with amphetamine paste (due to manufacturing method) potency is very hit and miss, not to mention the nasty side effects from all the vile shit dealers cut it with. Meth on the other hand is almost always pure D-methamphetamine isomer as a result of manufacturing chemistry.
Phenibut I actually used to take before sales meetings and I did very well. My job doesn't involve sales anymore but I still keep 250mg capsules on my desk and take 2 a couple hours before important meetings to be able to handle the situation a bit easier.
As to kratom.. I never really got the upper effects of kratom it's mostly been a downer for me, even with fast strains 1.5-2g I feel almost nothing, and anything above I just feel like I'm on oxy (actually 5g kratom feels pretty close to a few percocets) but what kills it for me is the withdrawals.. I get proper opiate withdrawal symptoms after I've been on it for a while; and that's not fun to deal with.
GABA (supplement) I always thought this to be snake oil since the GABA molecule won't cross the blood brain barrier, but maybe it acts on the peripheral nervous system to down regulate that part.
Honestly I think drugs solved a lot of problems for me but created the exact same number of new problems. I had a bad childhood and as a teenager I was very needy and complacent. But today.. well I don't even know what the fuck I am anymore.
Most important take-aways were that, I learned that it was okay to not be content with what life brings to you and that it was okay to grind for more.
I learned that as a man you don't ask for respect, you demand it and oftentimes you have to earn it through your actions (wish my dad was there to teach but at the end I managed anyway)
Pickup-wise I think it's been a zero sum game, I got laid many times due to the influence of (or by providing access to) drugs, but I probably missed out on just as many bangs because of being high and coming off as weird..
But overall, I remember my 14 year old self in junior high I had a crush on some girl so I offered to do her math homework because I wanted to date her, then while looking at her paper, lifting my head up and seeing her kissing some other guy. Well I'm just glad that that version of me is not around anymore.
And the best high for me is, and has always been the dopamine rush of setting goals then crushing them. By far and wide..
By the way: You like Berlin techno eh? I'm pretty busy with work, side projects, gym and LTR nowadays but a Berghain weekend sure as fuck would've been nice..
