Quote: (09-23-2018 06:26 PM)Echovoid_52 Wrote:
When I was 18. Before my friends suicides and murders. Was in my peak in my health and looks. Had plenty of women (also had no disdain for the female gender at that time whatsoever) and generally got along with everyone. Oftentimes didn't have a care in the world.
I'm 26 now and I have happy moments, but I'm mostly a wage slave who has a lot of pent up anger about some past girl issues and my friends murder suicide. Relationship with my family has gone to shit as well. With that said, right around my last semester of college where I was getting into the workforce, I discovered the world of escorts and P4P and I usually bang one model a week. I love it and I'll probably end up doing my whole life as I'm not getting married. My whole week I work a hard 50+ hours so I can go bang a prostitute once or twice a week. I consider myself a loner, but I have many hobbies that keep me occupied. So I'd consider right now to be the best part of my life, but a lot of my happiness is undermined by my angst from the death of my friends amongst other things.
It seems like you bloomed early and also gave up early. At 26, your life is ahead of you. My best friend was also killed when I was in my early 20s, which was extremely sad, but I moved on with my life.
Also, you are too young to do p4p. Read posts from guys in their 40s and 50s here who can still get laid without money. Game is basically a sport and p4p is like taking a motorbike to a bicycle tournament. It's effective but not fun. Do game, don't do p4p. It's hard and getting harder, but it sure beats p4p.